If love was enough,
I’d overlook your
unwavering putdowns of others
whose faces you smile into,
million small cuts,
relentless putdowns of me,
non-dissuadable gaslighting,
insistence for appeasement,
unsatiable abyss of need and want
for any and everything.
If love was enough,
I’d allow only your
smile,
laugh,
kindness to animals,
knowledge of nature,
gardening skills,
cooking abilities,
punctuated moments
when I believe you care.
If love was enough,
It would answer
Are you demon or dual personality?
Calculating or sick?
Sadistic or surviving?
Preying upon kindness or doing the best you can?
Broken or just made wrong?
Or manifesting what I need you to be
To appease and complement my own fatal flaws?
There are no magic 8-balls.
Tao Talk 
This hit way too close to home.
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Sorry to hear it. Wouldnt it just be easier to have a magic 8-ball and give it a shake as necessary?
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I’m not quite sure how magic 8 balls work. I’ve only seen a few in movies.
Oh well! I wouldn’t be who I am if I hadn’t been through as much crap.
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here’s an overview of what one is: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Magic_8-Ball my experience with going through all of the crap is that, intellectually, i know what i need to know because it; yet at the same time acting and feeling based on that knowledge often does not mesh. frustrating!
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