He always said
“I wish I would have known you before”
(…I became a monster.)
There was genuine regret in his voice.
The first movie we watched together
–his place/choice– was, “No Such Thing”
It was a template for his self-perception.
As he was cuffed in the back of the cruiser,
headed for jail for busting up the house,
he said, “I am legion” to the officer, who
looked in the rearview and saw glowing eyes.
In my dreams he sits in a crowded bar in hell
playing drinking games. I visit him there.
He gives me a shot of blue alcohol and says,
“Give it to her.” He’s staring at another woman.
top image: Léon Spilliaert (1908) “Self Portrait”
Lillian is today’s host of dVerse’ Open Link LIVE Night.