dVerse — OLN LIVE — No Such Thing July 2022

 

He always said
I wish I would have known you before”
(…I became a monster.)
There was genuine regret in his voice.

The first movie we watched together
–his place/choice– was, “No Such Thing”
(as monsters.)
It was a template for his self-perception.

As he was cuffed in the back of the cruiser,
headed for jail for busting up the house,
he said, “I am legion” to the officer, who
looked in the rearview and saw glowing eyes.

In my dreams he sits in a crowded bar in hell
playing drinking games. I visit him there.
He gives me a shot of blue alcohol and says,
Give it to her.” He’s staring at another woman.

 

top image:  Léon Spilliaert (1908) “Self Portrait”

Lillian is today’s host of dVerse’ Open Link LIVE Night.

 

 

 

 

53 Comments Add yours

  1. scotthastiepoet says:

    Wow1 This is as chilling as your illustration. A great achievement… Truly effective and affecting writing, my friend…

    Liked by 3 people

    1. msjadeli says:

      Scott, thank you very much. It is 100% true.

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  2. Glenn A. Buttkus says:

    Truth trumps fiction with this piece, Wow. Mt teeth are clenched to match my fists. The evil that men do is only equaled by the evil that some are.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Glenn, good way of putting it. To be honest, I see the dream as a sign that he’s cutting me loose from his enchantment. There is, in my experience, a thread of good in even the most evil among us. Thank you for reading and your comment ❤

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    2. Superb poetry, chilling, so well captured, the viewpoints, all. Takes guts to even write it I think…

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      1. msjadeli says:

        Ain, thanks. It did.

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  3. sanaarizvi says:

    This is exquisitely drawn, Lisa! I can visualize as he sits “in a crowded bar in hell
    playing drinking games.” A chilling and powerful poem.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Sanaa, thank you. There is more to the dream that is even more chilling but I left it at that. Thank you also for hosting tonight and troubleshooting.

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  4. Great evocative piece – and what an image to accompany. For me, I read some pity for this monster – and the final image, the bar in hell – straight outta Dante’s inferno with disco ball.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Peter, you read right. Look at my comment to Glenn. It was quite a harrowing dream that was something more than a dream. I wonder if that’s what happened with Dante?

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  5. I would have liked to have been able to hear you read this during the live event!

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Jenna, I wish we could have stayed in the original room that I got to via my phone and you would have. Using the PC to link up was glitchy 😦

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  6. Quite a chilling poem. A perfect match to the image!

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, Christian. I wish it wasn’t so 😦

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  7. Sadje says:

    Intriguing story Li

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thanks, Sadje. Truth is always stranger than fiction.

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      1. Sadje says:

        That’s true.

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  8. Dale says:

    I had to reread this after your comment to Glenn. You are quite the story teller, you know that?

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  9. I got the shivers with this one Lisa! Wow! ☺️

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, Christine!

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  10. a great last line LIsa.. Loved your poem! 💖💖

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, Cindy ❤

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      1. You’re so welcome Lisa! 💖

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  11. Evil can hold us in thrall and sometimes dreams show a way out. Chilling and evocative.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Punam, I believe you’re right. Thank you for reading and for your wisdom.

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      1. My pleasure, Li. 🙂

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  12. Badfinger (Max) says:

    I like the crowded bar in hell! Nice touch.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thanks, Max. It was a dream I had. There was more to it, but this was a main takeaway from it. Not a place I want to go again!

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      1. Badfinger (Max) says:

        No, not a dream you would want to repeat…but a cool image. Billy the Kid and all sorts drinking it up.

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  13. Irene says:

    I was very moved by your poem, even more so after reading the comments. I am glad there is a sense of closure and redemption.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, Irene, your insightful and kind comment is appreciated ❤

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  14. lillian says:

    What a dream you’ve shared here….and the image is equal to the task of expressing the eeriness, horror, frightening scene. I wonder what was in the blue alcohol?
    SINCERE apologies for the technical glitch for OLN LIVE. I’d done the links so careflly and with Sanaa tutoring me. First time I did OLN LIVE it went well; second time, blew the links; this third time I thought for sure it would be okay. I shall wait quite a while before trying again. I do so enjoy hosting though…would have loved to hear you read this one aloud too. 😦

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Lillian, in my dream class, I have learned that the dream world loves to use puns and other wordplay to get the message across. I see this as drinking game = he’s an alcoholic who plays games and passing the blue shot (of alcohol) to another woman = giving the burden of his games and the blue/depression that follows to someone else.

      No worries on the technical difficulties, Lillian. Please don’t stop hosting, each time you do it, it will get easier. You’re good at hosting! You probably already know about copy-and-paste, which is always the ideal way to insert those twisty beastie links. Thank you for reading and your thoughtful comments ❤

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  15. LaShelle says:

    Wow!! I’ve not read your work before but this is wonderful! Really love your descriptions. Beautifully put

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, LaShelle!

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      1. LaShelle says:

        You’re welcome!

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  16. hedgewitch says:

    This may be my favorite ever of yours, Lisa. It speaks with the power not only of dream but of the entire toolbox of the subconscious. You had me at “..It was a template for his self-perception.” and thee final stanza is just perfect in its mood of desolation and looming Gothic atmosphere. The dreamscape has its own clarity, but it is often a frightening one.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Joy, thank you for your appreciation and your insightful comment. You’re right about the dreamscape. This was my first trip ever to hell and it was only after I was awake and writing it down that I shuddered at where I had gone. It didn’t seem that bad in the dream. Thinking about it again right now, everything was in shadow and a sepia tone, like an old painting. His bald head and the blue shot were shining in contrast to it.

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  17. merrildsmith says:

    I wish we could have heard you read this yesterday because I suspected it was true (and see from the comments it is). I is chilling and well-written. I agree that it’s one of your best. It’s amazing what truths are revealed in dreams sometimes.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      The pieces have been waiting in the wings until that last stanza, conveniently provided by the dream. You may not have heard me mention it before, but I’ve been part of a “dream group” on and off (on again now) for a couple of years. We bring our dreams to group and deconstruct/reconstruct them with each others’ help. I believe that the dream world was designed as a necessary soul growth facilitation mechanism. What’s amazing is that it is available to each and every individual. It’s like that book at the library that you can choose to check out. Thank you for reading and your comment, Merril.

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      1. merrildsmith says:

        Dreams are fascinating. I should have written down the one I had last night.

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        1. msjadeli says:

          You still can (if you can remember it.)

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      2. merrildsmith says:

        And, you’re welcome, Lisa! 🙂

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  18. Hmmm, this sounds a lot like a couple guys I’ve known . . . Great writing, Lisa! Do you teach? If not, you would be good at teaching creative writing. Have a sunny Sunday! 🌞

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Lisa, thank you. No, I don’t teach. Thanks for thinking so ❤

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  19. Mish says:

    Better in your dreams than anywhere else. The last stanza conjures up a whole wack of wonderful…..creepy, but wonderful.
    Nice to see you at OLN. Sorry we got a little lost in cyberspace. 🙂

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Mish you have a point about it being in the dreamworld. Ditto on the OLN chat 🙂

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  20. Francochuks says:

    Horrorfully amazingly drawn lines❣️❣️❣️👍

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you very much.

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