Reena’s Exploration Challenge #117 — Was that really me? and dVerse soliloquy

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Truth or just a dream?
Passing in the night
Was that really me?

Things not as they seem
Shifts twixt mad and fright
Truth or just a dream?

Altruism; schemed
Followed dark and light
Was that really me?

Chaos taffy sweet
Peace a drifting kite
Truth or just a dream?

Trust and love don’t meet
Pairings doomed to fight
Was that really me?

Floating salty sea
Time of calm alight
Truth or just a dream?
Was that really me?

Reena Saxena is the host of Reena’s Exploration Challenge.  Reena says:
Was that really me?
I read a book with this title by Naomi Quenk, and the words have been imprinted on the psyche.  You may twist it to:
That’s not me
That can’t be me
Where is the real me?
It is all acceptable.

A Villanelle is a nineteen-line poem consisting of a very specific rhyming scheme: aba aba aba aba aba abaa. The first and the third lines in the first stanza are repeated in alternating order throughout the poem, and appear together in the last couplet (last two lines).

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I am also linking this to dVerse.  Frank Hubeny hosts Meet the Bar tonight.

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33 Comments Add yours

  1. Colleen@ LOOSELEAFNOTES says:

    I love the place where dreams and truth mix. Some dream s are true and some truth is dreams.

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  2. Sadje says:

    This is brilliant Li! Thought provoking and poignant.

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  3. Some things are better left unknown.

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  4. Reena Saxena says:

    Thought-provoking lines! Villanelle is not an easy form to write, but you did an excellent job with it.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thanks, Reena 🙂

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  5. Reena Saxena says:

    Reblogged this on Reena Saxena and commented:
    Was that really me?

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  6. -Eugenia says:

    Wow, I hung on every word! Beautifully written!

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, Eugi.

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  7. Indira says:

    Beautifully written. It starts a thought process.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Indira thank you.

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      1. Indira says:

        Welcome, dear.

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  8. Glenn A. Buttkus says:

    A terrific double-header; villanelle raises its formistic head again. You wrote a beauty.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Glenn thanks 🙂

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  9. Frank Hubeny says:

    I like the questioning in those repeating lines. It sometimes seems like a dream and I sometimes wonder if it was really me.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you 🙂

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  10. rothpoetry says:

    Very surreal to think about!

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Yes it is. It’s one of the big stories in one of the main books of philosophical daoism.

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  11. Beverly Crawford says:

    Ah, the “really me” … the secret self we rarely, if ever, share.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      It’s a shame too. It’s a matter of trust, I think….

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  12. This separation of self that is possible with a dream is such a wonderful moment to ponder our being. I will try to do that more.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      I like the way you said that.

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  13. lynn__ says:

    I love to analyze my dreams but this discussion comes full circle…lovely poetry!

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Lynn, glad you connected with the poem 🙂

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  14. Margaret Elizabeth Bednar says:

    …especially those dreams that repeat themselves every so often – there is a certain character that is me but the setting, age, emotions I recognize as this “character”… and I recognize she is back when I’m dreaming and am so happy to see her again… I’ve been having this “interaction” since I was in middle school – Maybe have dreamed “her” 12 times throughout my life. This is what your poem reminded me of.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      That’s very interesting. Recurring dreams are like litmus paper from what I’ve seen. What state the nouns/objects/subjects that recur are in gives us an idea of what’s going on in our waking selves. My recurring symbol is an aquarium and that aquarium has ranged from one to a roomful to one that empties into an ocean, and the state of the aquarium has ranged from the fish starving but still alive to giant fish leaping in the ocean — and everything in between. Only you know what that character means to you, but it sounds like they might represent your groundedness? Or a sense of adventure? Or? Bjorn’s comment is pretty sharp about the function of dreams also.

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  15. pvcann says:

    Brilliant lines of self reflection.

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    1. msjadeli says:

      Thank you, it’s hard to admit the truth at times.

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      1. pvcann says:

        Yes, I think we feel too judged to be transparent.

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